This weekend passed by without any progress or sense of achievement, leaving me feeling a little down and dispirited. This course is therapy, providing me with a sense of purpose and when I achieve something I am pleased with leaves me feeling as if I am progressing. Whether this is real or not makes no difference, it lifts my spirits and leaves me with a good sense of well being.
The downside of this therapy program is that when things don't work or I get distracted from my studies I get very low. This is one of those times. I am reading a very good book right now comprising interviews with practicing photographers and am augmenting my kit with a few new toys, a Samsung NX200 mirrorless camera added into my portable outfit. I should be feeling good, ho hum! I think the problem is that I am in a creative gap, not working on any assignment photographs and not yet getting my teeth into Andreas Gursky. Coupled with bad weather and the tailing off of some private projects I am not sure where to go right now. Maybe the thought of writing an essay, attractive though it seems in theory has stopped my progress and is forming a mental block.
So to look to the bright side. First the weather is finally picking up and I might be able to start some spring imagery and do some work in the inner city with my tilt-shift lenses (they do not like the wet). Secondly I was passing the Haus der Kunst on Saturday and saw this:
A Thomas Ruff exhibit just opened the day before and will run for a few months. Great, Thomas Ruff is another member of the Duesseldorf School of photographers and as I write my essay it will be important to add the context of other graduates of this influential school. So far I have seen work by Thomas Struth and the Bechers, so seeing some original work by Ruff will be very useful.
I also managed this photographic doodle - symmetry, detail, it is a me type of photo, however boring and touristic
Hand held, low light, ISO800 and still sharp, really happy with my X100. However, I digress!
Back to the course, I will also not make much progress now for a couple of weeks and suspect I am going to need to warn my tutor that my essay might be a little late. BUT the reason is that next week I am nipping over to New York for 3 days of MOMA, BH Photo and some of the best street photography in the world. Oh, and most importantly having a ball with Heidi!
So why I am feeling so down? Who knows, guess it is just one of those things, a creative glut that has me doubting myself. Hopefully my next blog entry, perhaps from New York will be a little more enthusiastic...